How’s your 2019 going so far? 2018 is a transitional year for me that my whole life, social circle and environment have been changed and it’s like I’m starting the game over. Like it or not, I have to remind myself to keep adjusting to the changing environment and anything new.
I still remembered when I turned to 20 years old, I told myself, “Wow days after 20 are gonna be super exciting and fun.” Well, now I am nearly 24 and I admit that adulthood has indeed brought me more independence and excitement, however, it’s hard to have those simple thrilling feelings again like what I used to have at teen-age. I started to think about the down side of every new opportunity and yeah, it’s just harder to be simply “happy” and not to worry about any other things behind it:)
But still, when I look back my 2018, there are some significant changes or experiences I wanna mark down to conclude my 23rd year on this crazy planet:
1. I started my postgraduate study, and this time, I work really hard (LOL)
To be honest, I rarely considered about master degree when I was doing my bachelor, back then I was still enjoying my college life and did not have much plan after my future, plus, I can definitely tell you that my GPA in college is just so average as I did not pay much attention on my coursework (so what was I doing back then? ummm). I still remember it all started from a call of my dad and he asked, “Hey, since you said you don’t like the life in Hong Kong, how about just leave Hong Kong and have a new start in Melbourne?”
So basically that’s how I jumped on the boat of masters. After I arrived in Melbourne, I just spent most of my time on food, shopping, swing dance classes until I got freaked-out by the workload on my first day of school. I was definitely not a hard-working person when I was doing my bachelor degree but now I realised that if you don’t get prepared weeks ago you may not be able to finish those crazy papers and placements in just 3 months!
2. I stayed in Singapore purposeless for a month
I LOVE Singapore and I’ve just spent my December there. I’d never think that I would get a chance to stay in this tropical paradise for a month and without any purpose or stress (since I’m on holiday). It’s always good to go back and meet some old friends and make new friends there 🙂 And it’s a little bit shocked for me to see everyone here is so hardworking with ambition towards their career goal, that makes me feel ashamed sometimes. But overall Singapore still treated me so well again and I just LOVE the food LOVE the bars (and I have to mention Tanjong Pagar! always my favourite place in SG!) and most importantly LOVE the energetic people here!
The only down side of this trip is… doing nothing sometimes can be really boring. Then I decided to fly back to Melbourne and started to look for something that I can do! haha
3. I did lots of self-reflections, and realised that no one can be responsible for my own life
I used to give things up when there are obstacles, then over these years I realised that the more I gave up at the beginning, the fewer options I can choose later on. I gave up most of my hobbies/work opportunities after six to twelve months. Back then I always told myself, “OK, you have experienced quite a lot in this field and obviously you are not that into it, then how about to try something else?” or “This is a good opportunity but obviously you are not well-equipped for it/ you are too exhausted to do it.”
The result is, I was still confused and anxious about what I should do at 23 while lots of people at my age have already started their journey with clear goal. I still put my expectation on other people and when things didn’t work, I was just unnecessarily frustrated and wasted my time. However, I think I am still lucky that I have met some people this year and they made me start to think about my future and to take action:) I started to adopt a totally different way to live and work and treat myself in the past month and so far even though not everything worked that well but I have reached to something that I wouldn’t expect to try before.
So, what is your New Year resolution? Let me know! (@Fashionmimo)